Before the effects wear off, from this liquid armor
I figure there’s things I could wash away
From the present hell I’m basking in
To the artifacts of my past I thought I could do without
This void, I really dont know what’s missing
I know it isn’t that. Go away. I dont need it.
Nor do I want it. Even inebriated, you’re worthless
To me. To yourself, too. Sorry.
Or not sorry, there’s nothing.
And never will be. Again.
Why am I here? It’s bullshit. All of it.
Maybe it is too much. My shoulders feel a little stiff.
Crushed. Maybe Im not cut out for it after all.
Just stay behind the curtains. The spotlight’s too bright.
Forever in the shadows. It’s easier to sleep this way
What was I ever thinking? To believe. To wish.
To hope.
It won’t ever end happily. I’ll accept it.
I’m falling. I’ve fell. I’ve fallen.
Deeper I go.
To think I’d lose myself in someone
Yet I’ve lost myself, to myself
Imploding. One mistake after another.
Can’t help it. Or maybe won’t help it.
Am I lying to myself? Tell me, me.
None of them. I really dont want them.
Stop bothering me.
Nor do I want me. Take me away.
Cause Im useless, too. As I am
As I was.
As I ever will be.
Rain drops in my room. Yea, that’s it.
Partly cloudy with a sure chance of fucking up.
Still couldn’t make it past four
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