You’re incredible. From the moment we started talking, I knew I was in trouble. I tried building walls and reasons as to why it should be strictly platonic but those walls have long been torn down. From the most farfetched reasons to the simplest reasons of why I shouldn’t think otherwise.

For someone so intelligent, I can see now where you’re as dense as the rock you’d most likely can break apart its molecular structure. Or maybe you do know the answer and just refuse to tell me. I have my hunches, and I have my theories about the whole situation. I don’t know, someone once said that adults tend to make simple things far more complicated. Seeing as we’re both adults, I guess that applies to you, too.

It must be hard on you. And I know the laughter I bring, the smiles I damn sure know I put on your face, and the love I vividly display may not be enough. Immaturity, guilt, fear could be factors. Time, money, responsibilities could be another.  I’m trying my darned best not to come up with answers on my own, because for one I don’t know what completely goes through your mind. And two, it honestly isn’t my place.

I want you to find your answer.

As much as I kept saying I’m sorry for confusing you, for entering your life and causing the script to change, I honestly don’t mean it. I fucking know what value I bring to your life, so I will stop saying these self-pitying bullshit. “What should I do?”….. it’s obvious isn’t it? But now it seems like I’m pressuring you, and that’s not it. I simply, firmly believe that…

You belong with me.

No, I’m not waiting. You told me not to. Whatever is holding you back, I hope you figure it out, if that’s what you want. Wholeheartedly, I do. Be honest with yourself and be honest with me. I’ll tell you my honest opinion about anything.
I’m falling for you.

In the end, I hope one day there’s no need for any of this bullshit hiding. You worked so hard to be such a strong individual, it pains me and I honestly shake my head each and every time you have to hide. You deserve so much more. And just like everything else you’ve achieved already, you have the capability to be set free too.

This is coming from the heart. Whether this is from one who’s in love with you, or one who sees you as a forever friend, a sister he never had.

There must be another route for me to take…..