What is the purpose of my blog? Was this just a newer incarnation of my old Xanga blog that I wrote random posts filled with teenage angst? At the moment, I truly don’t know the direction of where I want to take this blog. Ive written long posts and then there’s my thoughts that are a few sentences long.

I started this blog (again) for mainly 2 reasons: Vent my emotions through words due to a broken heart and to have those words read by someone I was entranced with (who so happened to be the one that encouraged me to start the blog). It was also a way to communicate with that person in a passive way as our schedules conflicted.

Then it became somewhat of a Twitter feed with those short untitled posts. Usually either blowing steam, a certain thought on my mind, or just something I want to say to someone but I can’t (or won’t). Truth be told, it’s these types of posts that take up a majority of my blog and it, in a way, makes me dislike what my blog became to be.

What is my purpose on this platform?

It’s been a roller coaster of half a year. I initially had plans but things got in the way. Bonds with people changed, disappeared and finally are reborn. Focus became hazy and then redirected. What drove me to write back then was heart break, an unexpected desire to be heard and (to be honest) self pity. It’s easier to write back then when everything seemed bleak. But now that the sunlight’s back in my favor, what can I complain about? And having difficulty to write with that premise isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Just means the landscape is more favorable to my next journey.

Or is the mishmash of randomness what’s perfect for my blog? Still haven’t even come up with a new layout. This is indeed, a window to my mind and heart. It isn’t a blog dedicated to food. Or to poetry. No reviews of entertainment or anything. Stepping into this blog means stepping into my warped mind. Is that my selling pitch as to why you, the readers, should visit?

But life’s good. It can be better obviously. And it’s within my power to make it so. I booked my flight to Los Angeles to attend Anime Expo and Disneyland this coming summer. For myself, by myself. I need to do this more often. It’s what I deserve.

The future is still too bright. It’s a bit scary at the moment. I’m treading a lifestyle and mindset I’ve never thought I’d have. Wish I had this sooner. There simply isn’t just a single picture of how my future can be. Why be discouraged when life takes me away from it?

The march to March begins.

Let’s go.