I was told sometimes it’s best to not always let yourself be available. Because people then take you for granted. Every little important thing you do. Every large and grandeur surprises you do now become the norm. And the funny thing is, you do these small and large things because you WANT it to be the norm. That you can’t help but do it for them because it’s them. You try your best to not be stale, to have fresh and unique things to bring to the table like a new inside joke as old ones are worn out. Or a different show to binge watch on.

And we give ourselves away willingly. Not expecting much in return but low-key only expecting to be appreciated. But when it becomes the norm, sometimes they see something else shiny and go for it. I mean, can you blame people for always wanting more? To always want subjectively the best for themselves? I mean, I always want to upgrade my phone every year.

But for things I’m tremendously sentimental on I prefer and want what I have. I own a dolphin necklace with a piece of rice with my name on it that no set of bling would ever replace. And maybe things may get rough, may be broken but if it was worth diving into  in the first place, it’s also worth trying to fix. All it takes is just effort, right? In the end, I’ll still go at it full force. Because I just can’t help giving all of me. Even if it’s thrown back at me, I have no regrets.

Maybe what glittered was gold after all?