Kind of sucks taking triple the amount of melatonin that I usually take and still be unable to sleep. Ended up having the urge to write something meaningful here.

Since the beginning of the year, I’ve made strides to somewhat start fresh. Part of it was killing off Rhem and the whole “online persona” thing I’ve long been attached to. Whether it be changing certain sites, certain accounts to reflect a different name. And the history of this handle is so rich, mired with both controversy and also memories I dare not try to forget. So as many New Years resolutions out there, this attempt is tragically failing.

This blog originally started because I felt some regret deleting my Xanga years back. Didn’t really write much and pretty much shelved this until I was given a reason to write with some unexpected inspiration. Since then, it has become sometimes a pain in the ass. It was meant to be private, only for the eyes of certain individuals but it was spread and became a topic bored trolls in a certain dead game used to spy on me. But maybe it shouldn’t have been private all along and maybe there might be some use of this blog. If thoughts keep me up and I have absolutely no one to spill it to, then I shall spill it here and maybe, just maybe someone out there might find some use of my shoddy thoughts.