It seems like time is just passing by so quickly. Just renewed my lease for another year. And finally my entire apartment is furnished. Funny enough, my previous apartment is a tad bit bigger but I’ve only really furnished the bedroom. Not saying I’m an interior designer or anything. After all, everything is kind of gray. Neutral. Neutral everywhere.

Recently jumped to another company. Once you did it once, it’s going to be easier to do it again and again until you find a place you’d like to stay at. But it got me thinking. Is starting my own company in the cards? In the past, I’ve always said I preferred to never be in a leadership role. Get me to a position where you can depend on me but I don’t want to be in the spotlight. And even up until recently, I’ve always said “I can be a Vice Captain but not the Captain.” I can always step up when needed but prefer to still hang back.

But I’ve been slightly annoyed at how things are. Even if I gain clout, what good is it if I’m simply just a worker bee? The past year I’ve continuously inserted myself into conversations I wasn’t invited to. My name now gets pulled into important conversations and discussions. Im seen as a SME and have been building up my brand. But do I have the personality and drive to be any more than just a skilled developer?

At least I’m entertaining the idea of it now.

But I can’t say all my demons have been extinguished. There are days where I simply am not productive. Rather than sit at home and study, I’m considering to do some extracurriculars that can do some good. Trying to find some stuff on the side to do on the weekends and possibly weeknights. Such as volunteering for a good cause.

Between my career, getting in shape, finding productive use of my time, I look forward to where the road leads.

Vegas trip next month. Lit.