And just like that, I jumped to my 4th company since making that leap of faith a year and a half ago. Not intentional but I can’t argue my salary increasing every time. Funny enough, my previous company reached out to me asking if I’d like to return and promised me an even higher salary. But it’s getting to the point where it’s not really about the money, but rather the people Im surrounded with. The heartbeat of the company matters, too. I used to think as long as I get paid, I’ll be happy but the ethical and moral issues I have with the company does bother me. At this point, my stress levels matter more than a slight bump. But I guess we all have our price point. If it allows me to take care of my mom so she’d never work again, I’d be foolish not to accept such an offer. As long as I can look myself in the mirror and am happy with what I see.

Imposter syndrome has been something I’ve been trying to cope with the past year. After all, being stuck in the same environment for almost a decade, it’s hard to see myself doing well when I feel what I do is easier than what I’m used to. Being seen as a SME in my new locale but not feeling it, I need to find that perfect balance between humility and confidence. But it’s just not me, and I know this feeling is the reason why I held myself back for years. Thankfully, I’ve met wonderful people who have been instrumental in getting my confidence up. Thanks to her, I joined a company full of wonderful people who have done nothing but help me and instill confidence in me.

Being part of a bigger group that you care about makes you want to improve. So I’ve finally decided to continue my Masters degree starting next semester. Even though several places have expressed their desire to recruit me and I’d probably get a higher salary, it’s my wish to help build and grow with this company. I have 7 classes left with my Masters and who knows, the world of academia is a potential, post-workforce avenue I’d like to explore, maybe get into research, look into a PhD and teach. But for now, getting my Masters, getting certifications for other platforms is one sure way to take my skills and prestige to the next level.

Not saying I’m now a gym rat but damn, I’ve got to give it to people that work out consistently. Thankfully my friend keeps me accountable. Im starting to get the hang of how to do certain workouts, got workout gear, those heavy ass Bowflex adjustable dumbbells and errthang. Im still chickenshit and too socially awkward to go to the gym by myself but luckily shes a gym rat so I go multiple times a week anyways. Works out (pun intended).

Still funny how things worked out. She was the first person I talked to after the move but never really got close with or talked to. And just like that, within a span of a year, she’s become one of the main drivers of the changes in my life and career. Introducing me to great people and a great company. The most social I’ve been ever and it’s thanks to her. She doesn’t understand how much I appreciate her and that she’s entered a very restricted club where I’d do whatever to takes to protect the happiness of her, her significant other and close friends and family.

There’s things still left that I need answers for but we can save those for next year.