Sometimes, it’s good to simply write into a blog with having to worry about some structured form of art being written. Throw away the analogies, the hidden double (or triple) innuendos, the desire to add bells and whistles to the simplest words. I didn’t always blogged in this manner. After all, wasn’t blogging basically a public diary?
So I figure to just simply write what’s going on. A slice of my life every now and then.
And what other topic is there to write about at this moment other than this virus going on? Not going to lie, when I first heard about this, I didn’t take it seriously and joked about it. It’s not until it is literally in your doorstep that reality kicks in. The very building that I work in, albeit on a different floor (that I visit regularly to raid its snack fund), had a confirmed case. Not only that, just like any other state, the cases continue to rise. This is due to both human stupidity and ignorance.
This all happened when taking one of the major IT certifications (mind you, my birthday weekend too). It seemed so unreal and when I learned someone in MY building got it, it was quite scary. Think about all the cases in the world, heck, in your region and at the back of your mind, you’d probably think “Hmm…at least it’s not in my area” and yet, just knowing the virus was literally a few feet away from you in the work space you’ve been in for years….. it’s truly unreal.
And it isn’t simply just a matter of health. While I’m not in the risk demographic, I see the economic and financial impact it has on people. People can’t work. People have already lost their jobs. While everyone is enjoying this self quarantine frenzy, people forget that others dont see this as a blessing and have no way of supporting their families. And we don’t know for how long, too.
Im fortunate that I still work and while it isn’t truly guaranteed (we have no idea how this situation will escalate), it’s still an uncertainty. Rather that than be certain that I’m not working, that’s for sure. Sometimes, we worry about not getting paid maximum dollars (and Im guilty of that), that we take for granted our stability of having income at all.
In lighter news, this has forced me to continue cooking for myself instead of having to order out daily. I think on a weekly average, I would spend $120+ on take out food alone. That same amount of money I have used to instead buy groceries that lasts for two weeks.
And like almost everyone else in quarantine, I did start to work out again. I forgot how good it feels to punch and kick the shit out of a heavy bag. I guess Im hoping to roll out of this distancing culture with an 8 pack, huh? Animal crossing has truly taken its cute paws around my life also. This game is so hella addicting….I dont even….
Us gamers think this whole social distancing is a piece of cake haha. WE WERE BORN TO DO THIS! Then again, the social aspect of online gaming still has its annoying quirks….
People are just disappointments.
The thing about trusting people (online or not), is not that putting your trust in them makes your life easier, it in fact makes things harder. Makes things worse. Whatever you hope to bury by letting others in, you just provided them the ability to bury yourself with it. But we still do it anyway, because we find that placing trust into others has this hopeful, aftertaste to it.
“She’s different”
“He wouldn’t do that”
“They’re my friends”
“Not like that”
hmmm….but they usually are. They usually do. And yet, we can’t help it. We have to learn to trust. No matter how cynical I have become over the years, I still have faith and hope. Even if that hope seems fleeting, I know it will never be lost. It’ll always be there.
Somewhere.
Flayed Syntax 